Laughter in my throat, tears in my eyes
Silence all around, tension in the air
I did it again right? I seem so bad
Stillness everywhere, still you call
What did I do in 8 months? you were nowhere near!
Yet you still think you know me! Where`s your right?
Still yet if another 8 months passed, your views would not change!
Yet here I am, trying so hard to change, trying to make things work!
You just don`t see, you`re too blind, blinded by false experience.
To think that for so long, this was all inside!
The thoughts that kept me going? Just how blind are you?
You think you know best? Since when have you ever been right!
Laughter in my throat, tears in my eyes
Silence all around, tension in the air
I did it again right? I seem so bad
Stillness everywhere, still you cry!
You claim you know me, So you can see my soul?
You read my mind and feel my heart?
To think that you can actually assume so much!
Your so self-centered... for a victim of tragedy.
The mistakes I`ve made, will never be repeated. (Can`t be repeated)x2
I`ve been so destroyed, so hurt, I could never relive that!
You always thought it was about you, so untrue, your just a casualty.
(A casulty of war, Nothing more)
Hiding what I feel, to fight the pain. Second nature to my soul.
It`s never been that I dont care. More of fear to show how.
A whole like of hiding the true person inside.
Instincts and feelings, screwing with my mind all along.
Laughter in my throat, tears in my eyes
Silence all around, tension in the air
I did it again right? I seem so bad
Stillness everywhere, still you (scream)
It`s not being able to laugh, to cry, being hurt is all i know.
Still it`s time to try.
But things easier said than done... Appearance, such a concern.
To change, time is essential.
20 years in one week? to be doing the impossible.
maybe possible, probable to be not!
So I laugh, I laugh to live, to cry.
Do you really think you know me that well?
19 years, A long time to keep silent
Possibilities, always present. Answers, never apparent